“Community can be a terrible place because it is a place of relationship; it is the revelation of our wounded emotions and of how painful it can be to live with others, especially with ‘some people.’ It is so much easier to live with books and objects, television, or dogs and cats! It is so much easier to live alone and just do things for others, when one feels like it…. While we are alone, we could believe we loved everyone.” From Community and Growth
I believe in being who God made me to be – an introvert, a “mastermind” (in the Keirsey Temperament Sorter) with the spiritual gifts of leadership, administration, faith and teaching. I am working hard to replace the false narrative from my family and the churches of my earlier years which taught me: “Yes, God loves me, but God will love me even more if I work harder and do better.” Ugh! I cringe as I write that, knowing how harmful that perception was to me.
But I do so agree with Vanier that “it is easier to live alone and just do things for others when one feels like it.” How do I walk the line between being me and being in community and available to others? Living like Jesus isn’t always easy – even at the ripe old age of 70!
Oh, and for those of you who are introverts, be sure to read Susan Cain’s book, Quiet: The Power of Introverts in a World That Can’t Stop Talking